I'm not going to lie, I spent most of the day disappointed yesterday after the race. I was SO hoping to be so sore that I couldn't move and be starving and eat mountains of food. It didn't go like that. Exhaustion definitely hit in midafternoon but everytime I looked at the clock I was thinking that I'd still be out there had I kept going. I had to keep telling myself that I made the right choice and feeling around for the little bugger's movements. I think the thing that disappointed me the most was that I had to walk. I've been running 30 to 40 mile weeks throughout and walking just really sucks. I was in great spirits the whole time and really just enjoying being out there, but once I got into the car with my parents who were great and took me there and came to cheer, I felt sad. I realized I never made it to Manuyunk - that's my favorite part of the course going up Kelly drive, and that I really didn't even get to be a runner. I was so mean to my parents and told them if they hadn't been there waiting for me, I probably would have kept going and finished. IT was a mean thing to say, and really I knew that I shouldn't have kept going, so it wasn't their fault, and it was probably meant to be that they were waiting for me.
Last night the baby was moving all around like a nut. I think he/she was telling me that he/she was ready to run and do the marathon and was mad at my body too. Yep, that was it. I really felt like my belly button was going to be pushed out last night by a finger or foot.
Waking up this morning and not being sore made me feel poopy all over again. I crave that soreness that you get after a marathon, when you can't walk downstairs without pain and it hurts to walk. The one and only pain that I have is below the back of my knee, the top of my right calf muscle. From walking.
I went to the gym after work with the intention of jogging maybe 1/2 hour, warming up for 10 minutes, lifting then doing 20 minutes. Once I started running I didn't feel like stopping since I never know when I'll be able to run and feel decent doing so! So I ended up running 6 miles without any huge issues. It took me 1:03 instead of an hour and a half. I think it was my body's way of saying Sorry for sucking yesterday. I guess it made me feel better in a way, but it also pissed me off that it didn't come to play yesterday.
Dear body, You suck. I only needed about 5 hours of your time and you couldn't get it together. Then you give me an hour of uninterrupted time the very next day. You better get it together, because I'm going to beat the S**T out of you if you even try something like this for Boston. I'm not going to be all cuddly and nice to you. I take care of you and this is what I get back?? Unacceptable.
HUGENESS BELOW
Fetus Francesco/a
27 weeks 11.21.08
Fetus Francesco/a
27 weeks 11.21.08
Sorry the body was just giving you one of those days...I am glad you went over your thoughts about your parents being there. You are right maybe it was meant for them to be there to bring it on home and call it a day.
ReplyDeleteThe belly is looking too cute!
hang in there ND - only 13 weeks to go!!! you definitely did the right thing and listened to your body yesterday. you will have plenty of time to have marathon soreness once this baby is out of you :) hold you head high - you do more than most pregnant women even think of doing... i hope i can be as focused and determined as you when my day comes. you are an inspiration girlie :) that boston finish line is waiting for you!
ReplyDeleteYou are still so tiny!!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm with Aron - you did the right thing. There will always be another race. You are seriously motivational!
You totally made the right choice! You did good. Don't be disappointed ND. There will be SO many more races in your future! And of course, there's Boston, too. ;-) You really really did good yesterday. I wish I was there to cheer you on!!! On a side note, can I say you are the most fit pregnant woman I have ever known???
ReplyDeleteIt's understandable for you to be frustrated and pissed, but I have nothing but *hugs* and admiration for my N-slice. Hold your head high - 13.l with the little homie inside you is awesome. In fact its totally amazing what you have been doing throughout your pregnancy. Now take your parents out for pizza, and BE NICE TO THEM, and look to your bright future ahead. :)
ReplyDeleteYour half body shot looks so good! You look kinda pregnant but in good shape! I know I always say the same thing - don't worry about your body BUT I am going to change my tune. I hate it when my body doesn't cooperate and I am not pregnant so yell at your body all you want!! You will be running Boston!!!
ReplyDeleteYou listened to your body which is carrying the most important thing right now. Just think of how good it is going to feel running Boston! You are looking great.
ReplyDeleteAw, I just read your race report. I'm sorry that it didn't go the way you wanted it to, but you won't regret listening to your body. The baby was probably just psyched your blood was flowing so much those 13.1 miles. :) Take revenge on Boston 2009, and then Philly 2009!
ReplyDeleteYou can really beat yourself up running with the baby jogger in March!! ;)
ReplyDeleteThere are several infant car seats that go in the BOB jogger. I went with the Graco Snugride (available anywhere like Target or Sears or wherever) because it was the most economical option and it works great. It comes with a base that goes in your car, and you might want to buy a second base for your husband's car. You'll also then need the infant car seat adapter for the jogger, which is another $50ish. I also got the console thingy for the handlebars of the jogger which is great b/c it holds water bottles and your keys or phone or whatever else. That was like $20. All in all, kind of expensive, but worth every penny if you're gonna be a running mom! Go ahead, pump up the economy with your baby purchases... ;)
Hang in there girl, you really did the right thing. There will be plenty of more marathons but how many times do you get to be pregnant? I dont know how many children you plan on having but im sure its worth giving your body a break. Your already still doing super awesome and i bet you will be ready to run boston. Great job!
ReplyDeleteYou made the right choice, and I think you are an inspiration to so many women who are trying to stay active during pregnancy. Well done!
ReplyDeleteYour body is just doing what it needs to do so you have a healthy baby. It sucks, but for the next 13 weeks you just aren't in control. It's hard but you just have to let go and do what feels good and healthy on a given day. I promise it passes and you forget about it. Honestly it's hard for me to remember what it was like being pregnant and it was just two months ago.
ReplyDeleteWhat you are doing is great don't be disappointed of yourself you are amazing keep up the good work Eric
ReplyDeleteYou are tiny!!!!
ReplyDeleteYou will be much happier when you have a healthy baby instead of a finisher's medal.
You did the right thing!!!
Aw, don't beat yourself up so much. You'll be so ready for Boston and will do great!
ReplyDeleteYeah, hang in there. Boston will be here before you know it, and they you can really take control!
ReplyDeleteDon't beat yourself up mama. Your body is doing so much work already, it's bound to have a crap day every now and then. But yeah, it sucks that it had to be Sunday.
ReplyDeleteBut it's great news that you ran 6 miles!!! You're doing so great!!! Your bods not ready to quit yet and that's good news.