The last few races and long runs that I've done, I've been cursing in my head while I've been running wondering why I am running, and planning out my next phase - triathlons. I'm telling myself - I'll just become a triathlete and stop doing marathons and not focus so much on running. This will be my 5th marathon - 5 is a good number to stop?? Or maybe I just need some time off to replan and take a break from straight up running. When I'm done the race or long run, I feel GREAT for the rest of the day. And I can't wait to do it again. But while I'm running - totally not the case. Does that happen to you?? Is that how it is? We're pushing and working hard and the finish feels great but not so much the run itself?
Today I did an 8.4 mile "race" down on Kelly Drive with my sister. It was a beautiful day with great views! I ran the first 3 miles with my sister and then got competitive with myself and knew I could go faster. But - I was out there for an easy 8 mile "long" run - the last one before the marathon. Around mile 5, I was cursing and wondering why I left my sister behind and pissed that I wasn't running and enjoying it with her. Instead I was trying to pick up my pace and pass people. So annoying! I ended up just under 9 minute mile pace, and the last 3 miles did not feel easy. I wanted to stop and walk! I wanted to turn around and run with my sister. Why can't I just do a race for fun and not try to beat people? Agh. It was a great day out there though. Kristen finished 4 minutes after me. What is 4 minutes in the long run? I need to get some perspective, especially because this was not a race to race.
In the end I felt good for having done the run and it made me somewhat excited (and nervous) for next weekend. 1 week to go!