I have been dealing with the absolute worst mood swings/hormonal things for the past couple of months in the 2 weeks leading up to getting my period. I will have a nice 2 week period of everything is calm, everything is great, I am happy about life, love every minute of being with my kids and life in general. Then pms hits. It is about a 2 week period of no patience, workouts that I don't feel like doing and are a struggle to get through, and my eating is out of control. I'm starving and shoving my face.
Last week I made not 1, not 2, but 3 batches of peanut butter chocolate chip cookies that were not healthy cookies. I had to have them. I ate some for breakfast a couple of the days??? Every cycle I am gaining weight so I'm up at least 5 lbs from where I was when I was at my "ideal weight."
Everyday I'm about to snap at Nick for really small things, Kara for being needy, and I do snap at Bill for getting home like 5 minutes later than he said he'd be home (which he can't control since he takes the train). At least once a day, I want to have a breakdown and start crying because I'm feeling overwhelmed or can't handle everything at the moment.
Swimming has really felt crappy and I had a good run finally yesterday but in the past 2 weeks, running has been pretty junky as well with the exception of a couple of runs. I've got in all my workouts - most just have not felt strong.
I'm extremely frustrated! I feel fat, angry, and annoyed. My clothes are seriously tight and I feel like it's ridiculous because I am training hard. Is this at all related to the end of nursing and cutting it out cold turkey? I have not experienced this before. It's been about 6 weeks since I stopped nursing. Any help would be greatly appreciated!
This weekend is the ODDyssey Half Marathon. I have no goals. I want to have a fun day. In the back of my head, I'm thinking I can PR. I think I can run around 8:00 pace or a little bit less but we will have to see. It's been hot and humid here. I'll report back on Sunday. I'm looking forward to meeting Runblondie!!