I've been getting headaches! I think that I am thinking too much. I am really good at causing self-induced headaches and I've been getting them everyday.
I keep thinking - what would it have been like if it was just the 3 of us for 2 or 3 years? Now that I'm on top of Nick's schedule and finding ways to have some time to myself, and getting the hang of everything, wouldn't that have been nice for a while longer? (But at the same time, I know then it would have been a hard decision of whether to take the 2nd year off from work with Nick or save it for later).
Do people that go back to work have it all? Or are they even more torn for time and all over the place (for instance, I find time to scrapbook, workout, and blog - could I do this if I was working?)
Are cravings in my head? I cannot deal with vegetables unless they are cooked by someone else with olive oil/butter - so that they don't even taste like vegetables. All I want to eat is crap and carbs!! Potato chips (which I NEVER eat) are now in my house, I've been having ice cream almost every night! I could eat pasta, bread, butter and cheese at every meal (besides the cheerios for bfast).... What is WRONG with me!
I was looking back to when I was pregnant with Nick, and obviously I had more time on my hands, and I went into the pregnancy being much faster, but I was running more miles and hadn't started sucking yet!
I AM EXTREMELY TIRED. The only signs of pregnancy that I have are that I am super super tired, have weird aversions to things I eat all the time, and feel bloated/ +5 pounds all the time. I don't remember being this tired with Nick but by 4pm, I am ready to pass out. Makes it hard to get up to go swimming but I'm determined to do it 2x a week.
The last thing I'm thinking about is rejoining my old gym. I did yoga there and pilates, and they have a so/so daycare. I'd feel comfortable going for about 1/2 hour? Maybe build up to an hour? There is just one large woman watching all the kids - so maybe when Nick starts walking and getting around on his own? Hmm. We belong to the Y but my membership is free since I teach the swim lessons, so I wouldn't mind picking up my old gym (3 minutes away instead of 15 for the Y) as another way to get out and work out!