|pretty views on this beautiful snowy morning
Even though I felt like crap and should have slept in instead of going running this morning, I didn't want to miss it. My sister (new blogger!) is in town and we made plans to run with the group. I kind of "slept in" - till 6 and she came over and we drove to Valley Forge to run 10 miles. Around here, there is snow everywhere. It was hard for the hosts this week to find a route that was safe to run on. We ended up doing 2 loops of Valley Forge park that start and ended from the visitors center. It was exactly 10 miles. We had to dodge a good amount of snow and ice and climb through some snow too. I did have a nice little wipeout - it was all one motion. I fell and kind of ran through it. I guess you feel embarrassed when you fall. It was a good laugh and I came away from it unscathed. We ended up at around 9:40 pace, but being that I didn't feel well, the hills and the snow, it wasn't a big deal. It felt fine and was a nice run with my sis! I love when we can run and chat.
|Kimp running down the hill
Post run, we stopped for bagels and a guy that I swim with is the same age as Kimp and wanted to meet her. They are both college swimmers and have alot in common and both single. It went well. I describe him as high energy and he's a morning person. It was a nice breakfast and maybe it will go somewhere except that he lives here and she lives in DC.
I'm still feeling quite lost in terms of the day-to-day. Before having Nick, I felt bad for stay-at-home moms and planned a return to work in 8 weeks. I didn't want to feel the isolation and inferiority (that I feel now). Sometimes I question if I should have just tried it to see how it would have been. Don't get me wrong, I love being able to be home with the kids, but I like how I feel when I am out swimming or running in a group and having an identity away from the kids. What set some of this off is when we went to get our numbers for getting a mortgage and one salary isn't going to get us the type of home we want to settle into. I'm working on what to do about this - it is causing stress in my home life. I don't think that full time teaching is going to work out for me with small children - and I feel like if I did that, I wouldn't feel right leaving on the weekends for long runs and such. I'd count the time at work as my "me" time. However, part-time jobs are very very hard to come by. I'm on the look out while at the same time making sure that I am counting my blessings. I know that I am going to miss this time. I'm just ready for this phase where I am having a hard time with it to pass!